How to Clear the Blur?
A new color drawing started above &
A few Open Mic drawings below, after some musings on going from a blur to clear & book recommendations.
i recently replied to a friend’s outreach that life has been a blur.
Yes, blurred that’s what i was feeling, not a bad feeling necessarily, if i can let go into it, rather than resist it. (which would only ramp it up a notch into queasy… then that’s not so hot!).
So not terrible but i’d rather be clear. i feel a bit unmoored when i’m unclear. Blurred as if i’m moving too fast yet i’m not rushing, its not a busy feeling, instead the world is rushing… too fast thus that sense of blur.
& admittedly i’m probably doing too many things without the benefit of delegating enough. D-I-Y creating my own bit of a catch 22 contributing.
More at issue, upon reflection, i’d been skipping my usual meditations, acquiescing to a story that i could use the dog walks with Tucker as a kind of walking meditation. Good but not the same.
So, i did some breathing exercises and a meditation with some intention, focused ahead of time on my chosen word for the year “Clear”.
First just getting present, just letting go imagining finding more ease and not being in scarcity, letting go of the not enough story. Willing not willful, gently coming back to clarity.
Even if an answer to a puzzling question doesn’t come, ie how will i possible delegate that thing i’m attached to doing myself…?
i find, there is a kind of clarity always available in that Centered Self place that i return to in meditation. & often other creative nuggets arrive that bring fresh clear energy to move forward.
i started to get there, letting go of that not enough part that had crept in with the blur, and watched the stream of thoughts that came, thoughts of all the things i’m learning along the way, recently read an inspiring & hopeful essay on sponteneous order, in a book Reportage by James Corbett & things about decentralized health care as a way out of the mess our healthcare system seems to be in & that lead to thinking about decentralized leadership, what does that mean?
Small focus, yet radiating out, then other things, a delightful conversations about the vexing nature of how the world has changed since we stepped into the world of virtual meetings, adjusted out of necessity in the last 5 years but now even though its not necessary, the ubiquitous use has maybe made it harder to have on site, in person learning, gathering experiences; workshops, retreats, classes.
To actually come together in person, so important yet we’re less likely to do it. How do we help people do that?
To initiate, be a leader, even when we don’t feel like we’re in a position to be leaders with so much change, so fast maybe in a way, we are all stumbling around in the murky blur, trying to survive, figure out how to make sense of the blur of “hyper novelty”.
Maybe just acknowledging that part of us will help us center and take a clearer step forward.
So as i return from falling off my clear mindset, coming back to it, to find a way to get back to Little Haven, to offer more of that for you.
Here are resources, one to help get a grip on your finances, if like me you seem to be feeling the pinch of inflation!
Your Magic Number by Avraham Byers is accessible funny, straight forward and even if you don’t have the income levels he uses as examples, as many people i know don’t, Avraham’s ideas are still very applicable with great printable worksheets. You receive it just for signing up for his newsletter which he doesn’t send out often and so far they have been very useful & you can always unsubscribe.
i discovered his work while taking The Creative Workshop in 2020 through Akimbo. He was coach/moderator for the alumni forum where i appreciated his good guidance in that arena.
Next resource, a new book: Ten Words: An Interspiritual Guide to Becoming a Better Person in Better World By Lauryn Axelrod.
i was lucky to have had the most delightful evening getting to know the author, Lauryn last week & am enjoying the start of her book. You can get value reading anywhere in the book with wonderful inspiring quotes and i think it will be a sweet and helpful journey to work through it from start to finish.
As someone raised without any formal religious or spiritual traditions, the books integrative, synthesis or distillation of the authors understanding of many traditions appeals to me. i suspect it will appeal to other folks who don’t feel they fit in a traditional path but do consider themselves spiritual and value the guidance of wisdom traditions.
Have a great week!
